so then. my chosen online/digital/whatever username is greycloak, commonly replaced with gr3ycloak, grey for short. i'm 19 as of writing this, soon to turn 20, soon to be studying psychology. my gender works in mysterious ways, but i go by he/him. i was born and raised in buenos aires, the best city in the world, in argentina, the best country in the world. and i have no idea how to make introductions so let's just begin.
as many may relate to, i was pretty much raised by the internet as soon as i got access to it at a — let's be real — far too early age. not as early as some, mind you, i was still playing super mario bros on a shitty nes emulator until like the age of 8? or so? but after that it was all downhill from there. i got really into minecraft, obviously, then at some point after that into terraria and spore, and that was pretty much my childhood. i was slowly marinated in the horrible language that is english and now my brain sadly thinks better in that language rather than the objectively better spanish language. or should i say argentinian language, the clearly superior choice.
okay being serious though, as i was raised by the internet i was very quickly exposed to horrible things such as:
- anime (though i was never one to actually watch too much of it, just kinda have my brain rotten by it? reddit style?)
- porter robinson
- undertale
- lo-fi hip hop (which i referred to as jazz hop or chill hop back BEFORE IT WAS COOL? IN 2015?? i was way ahead of the curve you know not many people know this..)
- extremist ideologies (but like, in a meme way i guess)
particularly we are going to focus on only one of those things right now::::: lofi hip hop (extreme cheering and applause)
i still remember the first time i heard a lo-fi hip hop piece. totally, completely blew my mind. it was on a video by some guy reviewing wallpaper engine, and he showed this one wallpaper, i don't even remember what it looked like, but it featured the first lo-fi hip hop song i ever heard in my entire life. it was falcxne - puddles.
nowadays i look back, and i barely even realize how much that moment changed my life going forward. it sounds corny and like, i am of course exaggerating a little bit. wait, no. i'm not really exaggerating, i really did feel like that back then. like 100%. now of course, i'm much older and it's just a nice song, but i got CRAZY into the whole lo-fi aesthetic and started looking into more similar music at the time. i remember finding this old lo-fi amv channel, 1171domino, which is now sadly relegated to a secondary account because of dystopian copyright issues. i found this video for jinsang - affection, and that settled it. i had to find a word to describe this new feeling i was experiencing. this feeling of being cloaked by the grey skies, hidden under the rain, in the big city, where no one knows of me. the peace of knowing the quiet bustle of those walking by will shield me from all external judgment. grisophilia seemed nice too, but i eventually came to
greycloak
the introvert mix was taking shape. falcxne, jinsang, somehow no nujabes but okay, alan walker, and how could we forget porter robinson. the first playlist i ever took seriously, right there on the worst music player imaginable: youtube. the description, long since deleted out of immense second-hand embarrassment, reads: (something like) "hey there, if you're here you're either me or you're a really awesome person. i hope you stick around."
i totally pictured finding a chill ass cool ass dude (or?? girl????) who enjoys chilling just like me... and i'd share them this playlist and we'd instantly totally bond (maybe kiss??) you can imagine i had many friends at this point. it still feels a little bit corny explaining how this username that i still consistently use came about, or why i was so protective of this origin story for so long. thankfully though, not only have i come very far from that day, but i have also built on my own foundations the whole way. it's been a challenge. i was right about one thing, not a lot of people take neurodivergent introverts seriously.
anyways that's pretty much the entire reason i'm so unabashedly into rain and tea and coffee and kitties and nature nowadays. i am undeniably an introvert, that much is true. but my style is my style, and there are a few things that make me click especially. it sounds a bit basic, for some fucking reason, but i really do love the sound of rain. there is nothing more universal and nothing more human than the enjoyment of nature. it is where we come from, and where we will one day return.
